Category: Fear

July 20, 2020 Pat

I can’t end racism and I can’t stop a pandemic and I can’t unseat a president. But what I can do is lean into the thing that awakens my heart.

June 14, 2019 Pat

I felt like such a grown up. I was 15 at the time, maybe 16. It was a casual dinner at my friends’ house and, yes, I felt entitled enough to call them my friends though they were much older than me. At that point I had known them for about a year or so….

June 7, 2019 Pat

Actor 1. He stands before a camera in a room that usually serves as a conference room. A condescending casting director who is really just a bitter, failed actor sits on the other side of a long plastic table. Headshots, resumes, lunch wrappers, and various office supplies are splayed out before the casting director. He’s…

May 11, 2019 Pat

[Warning: This post contains discussion of bodily functions. There will be minimal detail and lots of euphemism. If that’s still not your jam, check out this cat video instead.] It’s high time we have the bathroom talk, you guys. And by that, I mean I’m high in the bathroom…so let’s talk! Everybody does it, so I’m…

April 27, 2019 Pat

Just like the 2016 election, I’ve been hacked. Oft have I thought of myself as a formal group decision-making process but now I have the proof! It was a brisk November day (cue the contemplative instrumental music) when I got a text from my aunt. She told me to check out my website (this very…

October 29, 2018 Pat

Earlier this year I was in a movie called Love, Simon. I was in two little baby scenes. It was maybe 8 seconds of screen time (if I’m being generous) but I said some words and you saw my face. My fully-3-dimensional-actualized-developed-wholly-human character’s name was ‘Math Teacher’ although I called him Chuck. When the movie…

January 14, 2018 Pat

  Monday night of this week was a dark night of the soul for me. Okay, it was more like a dusky evening of my mind if I’m being honest. I just needed to grab your attention. Basically I laid in bed having a pity party for myself. “Pity, party of 1? Your table is…